polarities

Hi,

today I applied Sf on beliefs in polarities that occurred:

within the law<=>outside the law

obedient<=>disobedient

to control<=>to have no control

Also on: being helpless/in need of help,

                to be someone who will get an accident,

                to be dependent.

This morning I felt consciousness  depleting. The program for the day seemed to have troubles to unfold. Hard to explain in Englishhhhhhh. Reality wasn't as real as before.

I remembered something: I used to know how to disable machines/apparatus, without touching them. Car engines would stop when someone drove up to me, Together with a friend we disabled a automated church bell. Things like that. It was like I'm going into the apparatus and withdraw the believe that it works. 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as someone who is able to influence the function of machines/apparatus.

I remember that I was able to let things disappear. Not all of a sudden, but slowly. I started moving my life away from the thing till it someway or another was gone. 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as someone who is able to let things disappear.

I remember that I was able to let accidents happen. Forinstance I walked into  café and within minutes someone would break some glasses.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as someone who is able to cause accidents.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as someone who has powers.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to radiate a pushing energy to Monic which felt not good to her.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to radiate a pulling energy to Sylvia which felt not good to her.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use in secret powers to influence.

I am going to post on Open forum now.