donderdag 2 oktober 2008

porn


Hi,
last night I watched videos of porn, as it is referred to. Images of such activities as blowjobs, handjobs, feetjobs, fucking, as it is called.
Of course many Sf points occurred! Very interesting, charges in bodyparts, feet, hands, behind of legs, forehead, genitals, belly, chest.
It took much attention to watch my selfhonesty! 
I managed to stay in my starting point of selfhonesty.
When I lost interest I closed the laptop.
Then I did masturbation. I applied Sf when required, and watch closely if pictures of the vids would show up. If so, I immediately felt charges, so I stopped any picture. I stayed with the feeling of the touch. 
In this way, I didn't change in any way.
Then I became aware that all that surrounds me is me. I am in myself, in what is refered to as the outer world. 
Typing now, I applied Sf on a fear I projected in the "outer world". What nonsense to project fear in myself!

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