every day Mirjam and myself make a phonecall, an d we send a email. It's very interesting to see all the Sf-points come up. Today I realized that I in the mind was creating a "she is the one" scenario. I "saw' ALL MY THOUGHTS AND ATTENTION gather around her.
Another thing that came forth was longing for sex, and, to be pissed off because I wasn't going to have sex, (because sex is of polarity).
She mailed that she had been thinking of visiting me but she didn't because of wrong motives. I felt anxiety: omg she might bring me a visit.
I said to her, I deal with you in the same way I deal with myself. You are as me.